Tired?

I feel really exhausted with complications happening in my life all this while. It sucks to feel excluded, and it sucks even more when you try to include yourself and they simply ignored your existence... Not extremely disappointed with it though, because I came to this point in life with mental preparation. I have learned throughout my life about complexities of different people, and I am getting used to it now. Hence it does not matter if I have too little friends around me. I feel really glad to have real friends around me, I know I am such a terrible person at times, and my friends, boyfriend, sticked with me throughout everything. P.s. when I say everything, it meant quite a long period of time. I wondered why there will be some people would still choose to be close to me when I am a terrible friend, buddy, and I admit I was an ego person too. It is clearly that friends around me do have quite a wide circle of their own friends too, however I am still included with these people. I remembered I mentioned how tired I felt about living, because of many dramatic happenings that happened in my life, how painful it was to endure everything in the past. Time passes so fast and I realize I have underestimated myself. I survived through the most painful moments, and I have good friends around me who are nice people, and a good boyfriend who supports me and helped me. I feel no longer tired. Instead, I feel motivated, and I have found my reason to live. I hope readers of my blog have found their reason to live on, too. :)
Till then, x